So I'm on the third day of rejoining Slimming World. So far so good! I haven't stepped out of line as yet, so I'm quite proud of that. Hubby was going to do it with me too but he has stopped already. I think you have really got to want to lose weight to stick with it, and I don't want to make him miserable if it's not in his heart to do it. So I am carrying on, and with all my might must refuse to eat the not so slimming world things with him! We both also drink an unruly amount of diet coke, and I want to cut that down too. I have had only a small amount over the last two days and have been suffering a headache as a result of the lack of caffeine, it's really surprising how much you can end up relying on it without realising! I've been going to bed early, I know I need to just get through this part to break the mould.
As well as for my own benefit, losing weight is something I want to do for our family. I've been married a year now and would love a baby at some point in the future. This maybe TMI ladies, but I am all about being real and honest. Without my identity here, I feel much more able to write down how I really feel and that might just help even one other being.
So when I was younger, around 15/16 I had still not had my first period. One day I was on work experience at a school, and was staying at my Aunts house nearby. I was photocopying, and felt the most terrible pains I'd never felt before, but plodded on. I went back to my Aunts and went to bed, and low and behold when I woke up, the bed was the sight of a small massacre. My goodness I was horrified, so embarrassed that it had happened away from home too. I guess it's something myself and my Aunt and Uncle won't forget too quickly! So after that, about another eight months passed and I had another one. But that was it. Mother Nature did not bless me with regularity, only tumbleweed.
I was put on the contraceptive pill to kick start them, which I did have a few but they soon stopped. I had scans and all sorts of poking and prodding, but nothing looked wrong. So another 8 or 9 years later, I have had the pill and two Implants and never really had a period with those either. This brings me to now, where I had the Implant removed July of 2014, and I've only had two periods since, which both have been fairly light. I know It can take a long time to adjust, especially after having contraception for so long, but I guess I just don't feel like a proper woman! So now I am thinking the weight is contributing to this. I haven't been tested for PCOS but I don't think the Docs will touch me until I've shifted the chub.
We are going on a 'see what happens' basis, I'm pretty focused at work at the moment, and I would be so so happy to see that second line come up on a pregnancy test, I'm not particularly the 'Get Home Now Husband' kind! That being said, I am now doing an ovulation test every day just so I can keep track of my hormone levels and so I know If I'm ever going to ovulate! Time will tell, but less weight and less caffeine has surely got to help.
So I'm going to keep going, and see what sort of loss happens this week! Good luck if you are on the same journey!
Love TF x
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